the younger guys
call me grandpa
in the gay chats
even when i pretend
to be younger,
but i always
pretend to be younger,
to be relevant,
even though
i’ve never been relevant.

ever.

once i hit 50 i lost
my value
as a member of
a core audience.

sometimes i forget
i’ve never been
core audience
even in days of
relative youth
and relevancy.