she does not want to know the dark side
she wants to know if the green napkins are
the right color green for the catered affair
if the band will play the bride
and groom’s special song
if the cute little candy bar wrapper
which had been especially designed for this occasion
by a very hip paper products company
will have very cute pictures of the bride and groom.
there is no room, no space for the blues.
she has done what scientists
have not been able to do –
squeeze out the dark side
every major 20th century american writer
hemmingway in the 20’s
kerouac in the 50’s
bukowski in the 80’s
dissatisfaction with the conditions.
even when the material things are okay,
something’s always peeving us.
something isn’t right
not just right.
even this little wedding as it is.
i keep thinking of my writers
and their stories
about episodes of their lives.
sitting at a small desk, taking a pen pencil paper
and getting the feeling on the page
really etch it
so you know it hurt.
none backed down.
they stayed in rooms and cried;
played blues as well as anybody ever did.