I’ve seen the rains of changes
come crashing down in torrential waves
But it had been awhile for me
it had been awhile
since I’ve felt the rains of change
wash down these cheeks
it had to have been a few decades or more
not since I was no more then four.
I thought I grew immune to the tears,
(big boys don’t cry, big boys don’t cry)
I couldn’t imagine I’d ever hear
the tune of this grown up man
crying
mourning
& breaking down
But one day, one day the clouds in me
threatened to finally break free
As the blowing winds stroked my parched cheeks,
and the skies began to crumble
the lightning ripping thru to those
broken dreams,
stolen things,
used to be’s,
woe’s are me’s
and once the rains came they didn’t stop
they started with a drip and a drop
drip drop
drip drop drip drop
And I cried for all the things I failed to shed tears for – drip
I cried 34 years worth – drop
I cried all those held back tears – drip
I cried for childhood fears – drop
I cried for the the ones that used to care – drip
I cried for the long lost years – drop
I cried for world despairs – drip
I cried for the dearly departed – drop
I cried for the gone good-hearted – drip
I cried for the disappearing dreams – drop
I cried just for me – drip
I cried just for me – drop
And I cried
I cried for all I was
drip drop
And I cried
I cried for all I am
drip drop
And I cried
I cried for all I will be
drip drop
And I cried
drip drop drip drop drip drop drip drop drip drop
drip drop drip drop drip drop drip drop
til finally the rain ripped a hole in my sky
and all I could do to stay sane
was keep on crying
and oh how I tried
to stop the storm
but it kept on coming for more
and I kept on crying
drip drop
the tears rolled down my cheeks
in streams, in rivers, in crashing waves
pounding on my shores
drip drop
and my once parched cheeks
welcomed these rains of change
and as each one fell it relieved the pain
that I kept so deep inside me
until finally
I let go
I released my hold
I opened my soul
to the raining skies inside
drip drop
I let go
I allowed the clouds to open up
I welcomed the storm
I let the rain drops flow
and fall from my eyes
and my once dried up, thirsty baby blues
took on a different hue
as they swam in these streams
from these rains
washing down my cheeks
drip drop
each one falling from me – drip
calling to me – drop
reminding me – drip
that this storm is – drop
healing me – drip
releasing me – drop
cleansing me – drip
opening me – drop
baptizing me – drip
freeing me – drop
and the drips and the drops
of this internal storm
began to stop
drip
and the sky opened
drop
and the sun shined down
upon me
once again