She is…

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I should fear her.
For she is what
She speaks into
The truth.
Still, I’m drawn to
Her. Because though
She hurts during the
Day, at night she
Sets me free.

Grandad and I

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I had this dream once.
I was sitting on the porch
Of the shack house I grew
Up in from the country.

It was a summer morning.
The dew still coats the
Grass and flowers. The
Morning dove coos away
In song, and the fog creeps
Its way back to the woods
Making room for the sun to
smite us all in a few hours
with the ugly rage of Texas

To the left of me was my
Grandfather, sitting a few
Feet away. Panama Porkpie
Straw hat, plaid shirt, dark
Slacks, and slippers. As he
Lit his first King Edwards
Cigar of the day my grandfather
Slowly turns to me, and he looked
At me square in the eyes and said,
“You know they ain’t gon’ let
No Negro in the White House!”

“Dad” (That’s what I called him.)
“Why you say that?”
“Why you even ask me that? You
Know why! That man ain’t got
No business even trying to be

“I think he got a shot.”
“He’s GONNA get shot!
I thought you had more sense than that.”

“I still think he has a shot.”
“What about Jessie Jackson?”
(I knew he was going to bust out with that.)
“You thought he had a shot, huh?”
“That was different.”
“Not too much different.”
“So you ain’t gonna vote for him?”
“I’ll vote for him. Anybody is
Better than Bush. He ain’t
No good. Worse than his

Then, I woke up to NPR
On the radio. And I smile.
It was as though my
Grandfather never left
This world. But there
Was a difference. I
Wasn’t speaking to
Him like his grandson,
But as a man with my
Own views on the
World. And he saw
Me not as his grandson
But as a man.

And if the Lord blesses
Me with a long life, I
Hope to have this same
Dream. Only this time
He will see me as his

To Page

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I wish I knew you loved
Poetry. Then, people
Could read your screams
For help. Even though
No one bothered to

In Death

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My son asked about
You yesterday.

My son’s mind goes
A million miles
A nanosecond.

He asked about you.
You must have made
Quite an impression.

I thought of one day
Going to McDonald’s
Just the three of us.

Right now, I’m listening
To an old CD I was going
To play for you.

There was a club I wanted
To take you to. They’ll have
This kickass band playing
There next week.

I guess I’ll be going by
Myself…if at all.

Those tickets to that concert
Finally came in the mail.
You know the ones
I bought three weeks

I don’t know what to
Do with them now.

You see, our bond
Had no illusions of
Forever. Like life
We knew one day
It would end.

But like death, we
Didn’t know when.

So we lived for
The moment. And
We laughed, ate
Danced and fucked
Like there’s
No tomorrow.

But sometimes you
Live for the moment
By looking ahead in

So here I am. Looking
At the plans I made before
The untimely death of us.

Songs that were gonna be sung,
Food that were gonna be eaten,
Places left unexplored
Mornings left unshared.

And will never be.

And I am now in mourning.

Open Mic

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tonight, I mutilated
myself in front
of brothers and
those I felt had
my last name.
i used the blood
as lubrication.
to feel numb
for later.
to escape for a
little while.
and in the back of
my mind hope I
helped spawn a

The Greatest Gift

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The Greatest Gift

She is the Moses
Of my heart.

She parted the
Walls I built
Around my

My fortress.
My sanctuary.

My prison.

Ripping it
From me,
And in my
Pain, I
Love, peace.

She gave me
The greatest
Gift one could
Give me.

And like Moses,
She sees the
Promise Land,
But will never
Enter it.

But thanks to
Her someone
Else can.

She wants nothing
In return. I’ll respect
That. But I would
Tell her this.

“You’re beautiful.”

“I love you.”