Anticipatory Grief

featured in the poetry forum June 4, 2021  :: 0 comments

You have learned
there is a word
for this

mourning someone
who is not yet
dead

liminal space
between hope
and letting go

lingering
at the threshold
of loss

no-man’s land
you must cross
on your own

afraid
to reach
the other side

editors note:

To see it coming stings no less. (We welcome Agnes to our crazy congress of Contributing Poets with this submission. Read more of her madness on her new page – check it out.) – mh clay

Catalyst

featured in the poetry forum January 27, 2021  :: 0 comments

The catalyst emerges
from the cauldron
unaltered,

miracle agent
that caused the reaction
to erupt and burn

restored after fleeting
transformation,
indifferent,

required for the miracle,
but not consumed
by the flames

that forged something
irrevocably
changed.

editors note:

Make change, yet keep the change. What a transaction! – mh clay

Suffering is not a competition

featured in the poetry forum September 18, 2019  :: 0 comments

There are no judges
who weigh one person’s grief
against another’s,
no trophies
for the heaviest burden,
no ribbons
for the most deserving despair.

Do not compare.
That others have survived
worse will only add guilt
but not lessen
your depression.

You must still pull
yourself out of the swamp
by your own hair,
declare
yourself healed.

There will be no spectators
applauding at the finish line,
no paparazzi snapping,
no journalists waiting for an interview.

Only you
will know
that you have made it,
with nothing to show
but your heart still beating.

editors note:

Selah! – mh clay