Life and something else

featured in the poetry forum June 26, 2009  :: 0 comments

I am riding in the cab
and I watch the wrinkles at the driver’s skull:
I guess that this is victory-
the delight is pouring on me like rain:
I am on the faceless streets of Chicago
and from the radio is playing some good piano,
I watch outside through the window

the sun looks like a cat
sleeping in the corner of nowhere

I pay the driver, get out, walk in the light,
from the shelves in front of the bookstores
some faces are looking at me
faces of writers screaming for recognition,
words dry like autumns leaves,
my head aches
my eyes are weary,
I stretch out my empty hand
(the other one is holding the glass or
the conductor’s stick)
I am thinking about Hemingway
and continue to walk-
sometimes they tell me (but not too often),
that I am a fair poet,
but I am just dreaming for little quietness,
for one small escape from everything,
for one calm storm outside,
for the collected works of de Sade

some day
everything will have some meaning
but until then…

Angels,
give me something black and shiny
to put in my mouth.

Something in flowerpot

June 26, 2009  :: 0 comments

the night is coming slowly like old
gray cat and I am
looking for matches

the hunger of the mind
insist to carry on and not to feel sorry
for the missed words

the night knows how much to fill my glass
and after that to stand up and
to pour water from the kettle
on the thing in the flowerpot

the night is dying of thirst like
wheat in August

the streets are gloomy and silent
welcoming my steps upon the faceless
sidewalk, reminding me your silence
during the times of our war

the world turns slowly like a cripple
going nowhere with all the things upon it
and the silence the silence yes,
just for a while
while the audience applaud within
my bones

I could continue to paint but I will leave this
to the old dead dogs barking in my back yard
between the roses and the stones to do it

the night bents down over the flowerpot
and she says:
you are quiet
ah, you are so silent

my eyes believe in everything
and the honorable ladies sleep with
the picture of Paul Newman
waiting for their eternal repose

the water is pouring upon the green thing
just like the wind parts the curtains in the sky.

small revenge

featured in the poetry forum June 7, 2009  :: 0 comments

I don’t care about the metrics, the iambus
and the rhymes-I have read the classics and then
I put them back on their dusty shelves:
we write about something that comes from the guts
and the nails as the flowers outside
explode…

the poetry, can I say that I don’t care?

I prefer to drink alone in this room in front of
one candle
as the shadows in the corners sits and show us
their ugly faces,
ah, I know that the words are greater that we thought
and we will fall in their holes,
we will spill ourselves like ink upon the Chaucer’s paper:
let me be myself while I read the classics
let me be afraid in airplanes
let me be bored in churches
let me be silent before the tigers in my blood:
these words are too tuff for us to misspend them
just like the big boys during their time.

the rivers are flowing through me
and I burn like matchstick lighted by the words
of all Shakespeares …
and today I am closer to insanity,
I am watching the black birds on the wires,
waiting for our degradation,
for our small defeat while we walk upon the land of
Dylan and Frost, especially on the thin ice
of Frost

…find me one small torch,
not too big, just enough to set this night on fire
and I hear outside the young girls laugh
never heard about the hunger of Villon or the madness of Pound,
please feed me so good so I never again use their words,
let me find a little warmth,
allow me to find my sunflowers
shaking in the wind
and under the sun
and the God of the Word not Death.

sound and fury

June 7, 2009  :: 0 comments

like a flower, like the wind
my time burns against the ages,
pretty words hidden within
and we think that gOD is Great

hammer tilting in my hand and
some rusty nails in the pocket,
I will try to repair my heart that
stood against the countless slashes

lonely words rocking the graves
of all the crazy loves unwanted,
I smile, I nod, I wince, and I tried
to bring back all that was wasted

happy summers in my lovely youth,
but now all is washed by the river,
and we all try to wish that we stood
against the scarecrows of our fields

endless clock ticking time away
of memories long ago forgotten,
we see its hands waiting at bay
but who the hell cares, who?

this existence decapitating us slowly
and even monsieur Guillotin is silent,
the history shows us that we cannot
win anything.

please ask,
Hannibal, Hitler and
Casanova.

I count to 11

May 10, 2009  :: 0 comments

the impossibility of life is in
his beauty:
the beauty is a flower in
the cemetery-

new life
and old death:
dung-beetle pushing his own
little treasure,
and sunshine, always sunshine
why?

I hit the window
and my phone starts to ring,
I count to 11
and it stops.
somebody wants to speak to me,
to listen to my voice, somebody needs me
why?

I want to set on fire all the pigeons on
the square,
I want to drive my index finger on
the edge of the knife
I will send my love in a package
to Africa

the phone is silent

I water the flowers.

flower

May 10, 2009  :: 0 comments

the sky is blue and somehow
dumb:

flower, flower
scream for me

during all these centuries
you have seen the wars and the kings
and the different sun every day
and you sang

you have been picked by young ladies
beautiful as flowers
and you have given them something
and after that they took from us
a lot more

flower, flower
scream for me

I picked you once
and you said yes yes –and sang again
and I tore away all your petals
I thought I violate the maiden and
your aroma died

yes yes flower
my hands reach out for the glass
scream scream
I made a mistake, the world is turning
the fields the flowers
and the poems fall upon them
like the last thing that counts
in the silence

storm and bones

featured in the poetry forum May 10, 2009  :: 0 comments

big old house with blistered paint,
silent living room full of pictures,
I sit in the rocking chair and rock
back and forth, back and forth,

the sound of the family clock
humming silently in the stillness
and I drink quietly the red wine
tilting back and forth, back and…

old bones against wood,
creaking and squeaking

outside in the dusty back yard
there is the ancient cherry-tree
that stood against the ages and
the axes of my forefathers

suddenly I hear some other noises
and I take a look through the window,
one dark and hairy cloud is crawling
upon the untouched evening sky

and there is the lightening splitting
my paradise regained,
followed by the thunder muffling
the beats of my rusty heart

perfect moment, perfect hour-
the angry fist of the unmerciful storm
hits angrily the green grass outside and
I feel it in my wrinkling body –

old bones against the wind,
creaking and squeaking

O, Tempora!-
the branches of the tree are dancing
among the solitude of the passing time,
one perfect storm which shows me that
our world was created not for us

I think now
that this is the perfect time for someone to die,
no music, no dancing, no laughter,
just the boiling storm and
just this old clock going-
tic toc,

tic toc

tic…

let me be.