Excavate this city.
(Dig me out.)
Let love pull whole cities out of me.
Cities filled with everything love ever needed to replace.
Pain is the asphalt, heartbreak builds character
And towers as tall as daylight.
Somebody’s gotta do the dirty work.
Let it be love.
Let love excavate my ego,
my pulsing need to be noticed,
to be vindicated.
Let’s tell the paradise of orgies and organs what we really think of it.
Let’s allow our pain to trap itself,
trap everything else that falls into it,
attracted by the scent.
Pull the worst of me out by the roots,
and burn it until the smoke rises high and asphyxiates
every vile goddamned seraphim who dared to judge me.
You have no city,
you can’t grow or build,
can’t excavate or replace.
The poor bastards only have paradise.
All they got is love,
a medicine deemed useless without the sickness.
Just give it away,
to someone who knows how to fucking use it.
I’m collecting cities,
(the ones I haven’t burned to the ground,)
that stand dried out, still and sterile
with calcified hurt and petrified anger.
I place their empty shells next to each other,
a growing black metropolis filled with every single time I hated god,
or the world,
and tried to prove it.
There are more attempted suicides buried there than demons.
More skyscrapers to my ego and detriment there than I hold inside me now.
Without the tinkerer, excavator, surgeon,
I’d have nuked the whole icky black
growing mass of mess in me
to hell a long, long time ago.
Even a blast crater is better than an empty paradise.
Dig me out, man,
It’s growing bigger than I’m growing.
And I’m getting up there,
haven’t you heard?
Hell, I got heartbreak towers.
Tall as the everlovin morning.